Help

Can someone, ANYONE. Message me…. 

Loss

I was scared to blog anything about my pregnancy because my older sister follows me. I never told my family. Here what happened… 

Lost my baby at seven weeks; two days. Last Sunday I was raped by some random man I asked a cigarette for ( I was trying to quit). He pushed me to the ground and I hit my head pretty hard. This was all in mid day!

I walked to the hospital, got a rape kit done & heard my baby’s heart beat for the first time. I had fallen in love all over again. I felt dirty and still do….

Two days later my chest was really hurting and I had a fever. Holly (my room mate) called an ambience; go to the hospital at 12 am. At around 4 am I asked the doctor if my baby was okay. He did an ultrasound and I saw my little peanut.

The doctor looked at me and told me that the heart was no longer beating & that it could have happened for many different reasons. What happened last Sunday with all the force he use put the baby through trauma…

Worse thing about EVERYTHING. Chris, my boyfriend had his cell phone stolen… The doctor stretched out my cervix and cleaned me out..

I feel empty. Broken. Hurt. I had to do that all alone. 

Attempt to rap

I’m just doing me, rollin that weed, higher than a fuckin tree. There aint no ladies this hot in the game. I’m the bad bitch you cant resist. A crazy little bitch, I was made for this shit.