So I’ll holy fuck sick. Last night Chris (boyfriend) took me to the hospital carried me in the truck & stuck me in a wheelchair as soon as we got there. I have a horrible Summer cold. I wish I was feeling better but at least I have Chris! He tries very hard to tend to my ever need to help me feel better.
I am now 14 weeks pregnant and not enjoying myself because of this damn cold! :c
This actually fucking hurts… I can’t understand why you lied? I love you and am carrying your baby for fucks sake. I want to hurt myself and do t know why… You’re asleep, noones there to comfort me. I have to be strong for my baby.
Something seems off since I’ve been here at my moms for the week. I go back to London on Wednesday & see Chris when I have my ultrasound appointment. I hope things go back to normal when I get home. This trip is hard on both Chris & I cause we weren’t separated for four months. Like we live together & have gone through so much these past four months… I love you Chris Timothy Caron. <3
Over a month ago I had a miscarriage. On the 24th of May I found out I am still pregnant but miscarried a twin. I am not enjoying my pregnancy so far. I find out how far along I am Wednesday. I’m sick & tired everyday and have horrible cramping, especially at night. Chris is my boyfriend and he is the biggest support I have sometimes I wish I wasnt having baby at 17 cause I dont know what to do… I love my little peanut growing inside me but its a trouble maker…
I was scared to blog anything about my pregnancy because my older sister follows me. I never told my family. Here what happened…
Lost my baby at seven weeks; two days. Last Sunday I was raped by some random man I asked a cigarette for ( I was trying to quit). He pushed me to the ground and I hit my head pretty hard. This was all in mid day!
I walked to the hospital, got a rape kit done & heard my baby’s heart beat for the first time. I had fallen in love all over again. I felt dirty and still do….
Two days later my chest was really hurting and I had a fever. Holly (my room mate) called an ambience; go to the hospital at 12 am. At around 4 am I asked the doctor if my baby was okay. He did an ultrasound and I saw my little peanut.
The doctor looked at me and told me that the heart was no longer beating & that it could have happened for many different reasons. What happened last Sunday with all the force he use put the baby through trauma…
Worse thing about EVERYTHING. Chris, my boyfriend had his cell phone stolen… The doctor stretched out my cervix and cleaned me out..
I feel empty. Broken. Hurt. I had to do that all alone.